Good Occasions

Things i wanna try:
 mmmm Jello!!

 All you need is crayons, a hairdryer and some tape, then you can replace some of the melted crayons to make it look neater, you can also put a pic in the middle if you want :) or remove the crayons entirely! Fun fun!

Strawberries dipped in yoghurt then put in freezer!

Pyramid Game

So things are getting serious. I feel like this is one of those "Adult / life changing / sliding door" moments. The big discussion has been "Whats going to happen if we get married"?
Being Saudi, Melman is eventually going to move to Saudi, whether it be in 2 or 5 or 10 yrs it is inevitable. He has this dream of buying a house, with his hard earned money and building a life there, nevermind that he agrees the country is retarded, that women are treated as 3rd class citizens just because they are women, that the rich live in their own bubble and dont spend more than 4 - 6 months of the year in the country.
So here i am, a very liberal, open minded and tree loving hippie trying to figure out if giving up my most basic freedoms is worth it for the man i love.
There's always a catch.
There always has to be a catch with every beautiful relationship.
Im really torn, as my puffy eyes can tell you - the result of a 3 day crying marathon.
Do i want to build a life with this man? Yes
Do i want to do it in Saudi? Never
Do i want to be surrounded by his side of the family in a country that is so demented where i cant even drive my kids to school? FUCK NO
Do i want to give up on us? No
but it looks like i have a very tough decision to make, im going to be giving up a lifestyle for something that is completely strange and foreign to me.
I know a diva and a spoilt brat would have immediatley decided to end the relationship. But i want to be a mother and a wife and this is the man i want to do it with, i feel like a mama bear protecting her cubs, this relationship is my baby and i cherish it with every fibre of my body.
Ive seen whats out there, ive seen how pathetic some men are in this day and age... i have never met any man who has loved me as much as Melman has, a man who is truly a man with a good head on his shoulders and an amazing heart in his chest.
i cant ignore this issue because i need to decide, but im just not ready.

Smile

Someone posted something on pintrest.com (which has now become my latest obsession) about creating a memory jar for the year. Just get a regular glass jar, fill it with notes of memories that made you smile during the year.
Go back and read them at the end of the year :)

Funhouse!

Also seeing as how i have marriage on the brain...i love these save the date ideas and wedding cards..

telling our story is fun :)  

tying the knot ...

Take Care

So as it seems that i am not blogging that much about my love life or life in general, ive been thinking about turning this into a general blog about things i like, things that make me smile and all the other lovely things that are out there..
For example.. below are ideas for my future home.. i want it to be original and home-y and fun.. like this in the laundry room:

or this!

fuck you

Driver who hit my car today - Fuck you
Kempinski IShtar Dead sea that kicked me out 3 years ago - Fuck you
Woman who belittled me on email today - Fuck you
My supervisor - Fuck you
Kim Kardashian - FUCK YOU
Shitty line up at F1 weekend - FUCK YOU
Possibly ever moving to saudi if i marry Melman - FUCK THAT SHIT
People who put their kids on their laps while driving - FUCK YOU !!!
you know what im not gonna bother being nice to anyone anymore and going out of my way.. FUCK THAT SHIT>.

God only knows

So the iftar went ok i think.. it could have gone better had i been more sociable.. i was doing alright in the beginning.. but then after the food I just remained silent.. she mustve thought i was a freak.. Even Melman commented on it when he was walking me back to the car. I just told him to tell her im shy when i first meet people..
I asked him later what she said about me and he said: "She said youre very pretty, and nice.. but is she always this quiet? also, she lives here? on her own? without her family? and why isnt she married yet"
I kinda expected this - coz she is a bit old school. but it does kind of freak me out in a way.. that if things get serious with Melman then im going to be surrounded by that sort of mentality from his family.. ill admit my dad was a bit like that in the beginning eg: we dont have girls that live out of the house in another country - other than for university... but things changed and hes become a lot more liberal...
But Melman's mom has been living in Saudi her entire life.. they arent used to their daughters living on their own and living their lives without their families interference. Its a big thing for me to consider for the future.. but I know Melman is liberal with a lot of his views but he also does have his religious side.. but its never imposing.. its more as a guide on how to be the best person you can be..
Just lots of things to consider if things do get serious..
Ive finally been seeing him.. his Mom just left.. i really do feel how much he loves me, it really is a cheesy thing to say but its wonderful being loved by him. I adore him..

Happiness

Melman has suggested i have iftar with his family ... so im officially meeting the mom in a situation other than bumping into them at the mall.. its a pretty big step but im not going to think about it too much.. just a bit nervous coz im not looking forward to speaking in Arabic the whole time.. though im really looking forward to the Shishbarak..
updates soon..

It feels good to be around you

Havent been seeing Melman at all..his family has been in town for almost 3 weeks now.. with another week to go.. i went to London and came back and only saw him once for 1 hour.. at least its making Ramadan go by faster in the sense that he wants to pass this month "Halal"... we've planned a lil getaway although the timing isnt amazing but i discovered he wont be here all of October and the beginning of Nov so this is our only time and it just so happens to coincide with the beginning of my brother's wedding celebrations.. Luckily i was able to book back to Amman in Eid and throw the bachelorette party then..
Was thinking about Oman today a lot and how we met and if i knew then that i would be in a loving relationship with this man.. i actually for once didnt think about anything when i was starting to get to know him,, he didnt really give me time to think about it. i was thinking about how we hugged that night and how he hugged me from behind while we were standing at the camp fire. I wouldnt let him kiss me.. it was cute.. and how we were attached at the hip the weekend after at Creamfields.. and the whole concert he was hugging me. it was blissful.. i miss him :(